Thursday, July 30, 2009

Any other psychiatric survivors thinking of protesting?

The following was a recent comment by a psychiatric survivor
Hey man I love what you're doing here, keep it up :D.

I was thinking of doing the same thing at the hospital I was abused at. Got any tips for a newbie protester? :)
I already posted a small comment in reply. Later, after the commenter emailed me, I was able to respond at length.

This is exactly the kind of interaction that keeps me going and reassures me during my darkest periods of doubts. It is a great inspiration to me and I feel very motivated in my own activism efforts because of this. Hearing from fellow psychiatric survivors and activists has been without question the greatest highlight of my protest and the biggest factor that has kept me going forward.

Are there any psychiatric abuse survivors out there that are planning on holding a peaceful protest outside the facility where they were abused? I would like to feature any such protests on a new website I am planning to raise awareness of psychiatric abuse and activism.

Please comment below or email me at and let me know. If you just leave a comment I won't be able to get in touch with you other so remember to sent me an email also.



Days 69 to 82 of 100

Day 69: Thursday, July 16 @ 9:35 pm to 10:35 pm
Day 70: Friday, July 17 @ 1:30 am to 2:30 am
Day 71: Saturday, July 18 1:05 am to 2:05 am
Day 72: Sunday, July 19 @ 2:00 am to 3:00 am
Day 73: Monday, July 20 @ 10:35 am to 11:50 am
Day 74: Tuesday, July 21 @ 2:35 am to 3:35 am
Day 75: Wednesday, July 22 @ 3:15 am to 4:15 am
Day 76: Thursday, July 23 @ 3:25 am to 4:25 am
Day 77: Friday, July 24 @ 9:00 pm to 10:00 pm
Day 78: Saturday, July 25 @ 7:10 pm to 8:10 pm
Day 79: Sunday, July 26 @ 3:50 am to 4:50 am
Day 80: Monday, July 27 @ 4:15 am to 5:15 am
Day 81: Tuesday, July 28 @ 3:00 am to 4:00 am
Day 82: Wednesday, July 29 @ 4:20 am to 5:20 am

Still Protesting...

I am still protesting despite the fact that I have not been updating my protest times on the blog. I am quite exhausted by now and have not been finding the time or inspiration to blog lately. For this I apologize.

An other issue that has unfortunately crept up is that I have been protesting later at night; sometimes well past midnight - thus a few hours late for those days and technically into the next day.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Days 61 to 68 of 100

Day 61: Wednesday, July 8 @ 11:50 pm - 12:50 am
Day 62: Thursday, July 9 @ 1:45 pm - 12:45 am
Day 63: Friday, July 10 @ 10:20 am. - 11:20 am
Day 64: Saturday, July 11 @ 8:25 pm to 9:25 pm
Day 65: Sunday, July 12 @ 12:15 am - 1:15 am
Day 66: Monday, July 13 @ 7:15 pm - 8:15 pm
Day 67: Tuesday, July 14 @ 7:00 pm - 8:15 pm
Day 68: Wednesday, July 15 @ 7:30 pm - 8:30 pm

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Friends Hospital = Frustrations

When I emailed the patient rep at Friends Hospital in reply to his offer to look into my allegations, I very specifically requested that all correspondence shall be done through email. The reason I did this is two fold:
1. To maintain transparency*.
2. It is emotionally much easier for me to write something down on paper than to be speaking on the phone with the representative from the facility where I was severely abused.

I had experienced nothing but frustration in my attempts from years earlier when I tried to obtain my medical records from Friends Hospital. Their claim was at first that they had no records and later that it must have been misplaced. I don't know how many weeks I had to call them up and keep asking them about my records before they finally said that they "found" them. Each time I called, my heart was pounding and my voice cracked like the crush of dry leaves under the pain and frustration of having to endure this second victimization. I still do not have a complete set of my records as far as I believe.

So why should I endure the same cycle of deception and frustration? Well, life is about compromises so I am willing [to an extent] to endure some frustrations. I finally managed the courage to call Friends Hospital rep's number yesterday and got the answering machine. I did not leave a message. I called again today and got the same voice mail. I did leave a message today:
Hi Mr.*
This is Godly Mathew. I'm the gentleman who is protesting outside. You asked me to give you a call. It's really much, much more convinient and emotionally easier for me to do this by email but I'm trying to be as reasonable as possible but give me a call back if you rather do this over the phone but I am tape recording the whole thing because I want it to be transparent. You can call me on my cell if you like [*phone number]. Thanks.

There are plenty of businesses that conduct important, mission critical correspondence by email every day. I don't think my demand is at all unreasonable but life is all about compromises right?. Well, email or not - this will be transparent and I will be posting all transcripts on my blog.

For a complete record of all correspondence, Click here.

*In the interest of being objective, a friend of mine did critique my efforts at 'transparency'. You can read his views here.

So what do you think? Questions, comments, critiques? Feel free to email me.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Some Days...

Some days are very inspirational. Others less so.

There are days when I look forward to the protest and have a great time. Other times I almost dread the whole experience and count down the minutes till it's done. Overall, the protest has been a very positive experience in my life. People reach out both on the street as well as on my blog and through email and I feel that I'm making at least a small difference.

The last two weeks have been the most difficult so far for reasons I cannot easily explain. The protest felt mundane and awkward most of the time and the last thing I wanted to do was write about it. Now I'm feeling a little better and so I thought I would try to write a little.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Finally got my associates in computer networking...

I have found it nearly impossible to do any writing lately. There is less than 40 days left and I must say that in some ways I am a bit relieved. Will explain more in a later post. Just happy and relieved that I finally graduated my computer networking course with an associates. I have been under a lot of stress lately. Now I can breathe [a little] easier. Hopefully I will land an entry level job in the field and be able to start saving up some money. Right now I am just grateful that I have a part time job at a gas station. I have a long road ahead of me and in many ways I am just starting my journey. I'm traveling light (few expectations) but I don't want to be completely without hope. There is just so much I'm struggling with internally and so little patience to write.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Days 51 to 60 of 100

Day 51: Sunday, June 28 @ 10:50 pm - 11:50 pm
Day 52: Monday, June 29 @ 11:25 pm - 12:25 am
Day 53: Tuesday, June 30 @ 11:00 pm - 12:00 am
Day 54: Wednesday, July 1 @ 12:00 am - 1:00 am
Day 55: Thursday, July 2 @ 9:30 pm - 10:30 pm
Day 56: Friday, July 3 @ 10:45 pm. - 11:45 pm
Day 57: Saturday, July 4 @ 8:00 pm to 9:00 pm
Day 58: Sunday, July 5 @ 9:30 pm - 10:30 pm
Day 59: Monday, July 6 @ 3:00 pm - 4:00 pm
Day 60: Tuesday, July 7 @ 12:00 am - 1:00 am